Anxiety, Self-Doubt, Courage

Rocket recently put it rather astutely: Right now, I'm just a bit overwhelmed. Indeed! Echo that for me.

• Three boys at home.
• Delightful they are, but exhausting.
• The youngest, now a mere two weeks alive, still in that stage of "WOW! The World!" [SNORT SNORT SNUFFLE GRUNT] [Grimace]
• For those with kids: you forget this stage, but there he is, completely dependent upon us, and with little to do but flop and observe.
• For those without kids: This stage of life is like having a very precious, demanding, and wonderful pet, whom you know, you just know, will grow very suddenly into something even more remarkable. But you wait.
• The middle boy trying (I know he's trying) to leave behind diapers and enter the world of the potty-trained (but our patience gives out at times, when all the training pants and clothes are dirty).
• The oldest is ready for the new move. He couldn't understand why we'll only be spending five days on our upcoming trip.
• I thought we were going to move to a new house?
• Um... but we've got to find a place, we've got to be sure we'll like the new town, we've got to put an offer on a house, then pack, and figure out how we're going to move, and... Come here, give me a hug.
  
• A wife on leave, with vanishingly little intention to return to her job.
• I'm proud of her courage.
• I just fear I won't provide for her the way she has for me these past several years.
  
• A small horde of savings that may last us about two years.
• A jittery economy and financial markets don't settle my worries, though I'm glad I started moving a chunk of funds out of equities into cash and bonds last September. My hunch was right.
  
• A world of possibilities.
• Will I succeed in building my ideas into marketable products?
• Will I retain myself, will I maintain my commitments to bettering the world?
• Will I remember my research while I need to find ways for it to pay for itself?
• I try to remember that I am me, no matter what.
• I try to recall that none of the important things in life (my family, my self, my mind) are at risk. Only money, and time.

Courage!